I truly understood how it feels when I'm always out with friends when you're in camp. Now I understand.

Exam period sucks. I want to talk to someone so badly but there isn't any souls to talk to. Maybe everyone around me is just dead. No my friend, you were never there for me. Never ever tell me you will always be there for me. For you never did so. And I've already given up on you.

I always end up typing some bullshit here. This has been the worse december in my entire life. Fucking swear. I used to look forward to it, anticipating it, planning and dreaming about it the whole year. But not anymore. It's one of the months I will not look forward to, anymore. My birthday is no longer important to me. Neither is christmas. And in a blink of eye, a new year will soon arrive. Nothing is worth celebrating and being happy about now.

I finally figured out how to input the codes for a new blogskin! Throw away the old boring layout! I am so satisfied with myself. Been so long since I last wanted to change it. Now it makes me want to blog more often than usual. Haha.

Today's exam was pretty good I must say. Left out all theory questions and there goes my 15marks. But overall, everything was approachable. More or less, I am confident to score well! :)

Also, baby went for lasik today. I am so excited for him. Hope the process will be quick and painless. Can't wait to see him with his new look!



Without specs, looking good! Cute la! Haha.

I am getting lazy to upload pictures.

Finally the exam week started. I am so anticipated for exams! Just can't wait for all modules to be cleared and then comes fun and enjoyment, without guilt. Haha.

I should totally enjoy this weekend! I so deserve a nice weekend. It's been long since I last shopped, did my nails and have a great meal chilling out. December really came quick. I feel like I am missing out the fun already. Damn. It's Mid Dec already!

Besides, I got totally no clue on how to celebrate my birthday. Boring! Booooo..

been over at baby's place for the past 1 week. feeling so comfortable at his place alr. the sweetest thing is being able to lie on his arms to sleep and being awake to see him. feeling even fortunate to shop for food, get back home to the kitchen and start whipping up some nice breakfast for that baby. spells blessed. ima try doing that again! i just love cooking for my loved ones. and i promise good meals everyday in the future, for you.

a little update abt my last min presentation, i bearly make it. it was a border line pass. i knew that's what i will deserve for not doing any research nor preparing beforehand. nonetheless, i am not a tad bit upset. at all. at least i did it okay. i feel embarrassed when asked abt the article, when i did not read a single line. apparently, i couldn't answer any questions asked. not even the simplest: what's the country of teens being discriminated(my article topic). how godly? everything was litearlly googled! even my summary. lol.

wtf. i gotta kick that habit when i go to yr2. =/



chatting over msn with babyboy. he's sucha sweetheart. :)

had a video call and it just warms me to see him over the webcam. then came my mum, being the kpo one. hahaha. baby was shy! like what you said to me 'dun be shy okay, she is your future mother-in-law'. give you back your words! haha.

it's study week this week. gonna hit the boring dry books offically tmr! i'm excited to have dim sum with baby. and i just cant wait for exams to end! excited for baby's lasik too. hope everything will be fine and that he can bear with the pain and soon, i can see my handsome baby. even with specs he's already looking stunning! what's more without specs? DOPE! <3

gotta work out too to compensate for the weekends and festive season! the feeling of sweat oozing out from my pores, makes me high. no, im neither gay nor insane. simply because, no food taste as good as skinny feels! but wait, i just can't resist temptation. ohh.. chocolate ice cream with brownies with hot chocolate fudge.. alfredo fussili.. starbucks white chocolate with whip cream.. *SCREAMS*

today's the last day of school for sem1. time indeed past real fast. and soon exams will be over and god, it's my bird-day and xmas. i have no ideas how to celebrate my bday though. every year is just the same. nothing special. no exception this time round.

i am going crazy when i step into boutiques. i wanna shop so badly. i wanna get everything. the winter season is awesome. i really love the jackets and coats. damn.

a last min decision to make breakfast for baby. went out to the cold storage to get eggs, bread, ham, hotdog and orange juice. really yummy breaky! me like. hope he likes it too. then headed school. finally went to extend my passport. thanks baby! i am thinking.. can someone give me good ideas to what xmas present should i get?

alright, i am heading off to school now!
gotta grab a bite. hungry! ROAR!


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i seriously hate rainy days. was all prepared for school then it started raining cats and dogs. worst still, i dun even have an umbrella! can't go out at all. missed my very last lecture for the sem. :(

ordered pizza for breakfast/lunch at like 3pm. mad hungry. baby is off for cable ski at batam. i am so bored at home without him. he will only be back at 11pm. what am i supposed to do. so bored. sobz.

i am having doubts about myself. been trying to lose weight and go on diet. but on the other hand, been eating too much lately. and worst still, not exercising. this is so bad. sigh. i wish i have the ability to slim myself whenever i feel like it. that would probably be the best gift ever from god. and yes, apparently i am dreaming. what a sweet dream.

november is coming to an end! which means, it's december soon! my fav month of the year! damn. i am getting all excited when it's dec. it's the month of festivals, month of giving. esp christmas. people get tgt and exchange gifts. too bad i dun have such strong friendships that meet up all the time. everyone is just busy with their stuff. nevertheless, i still got babyboy to celebrate it with me! :)

i can't think of my birthday now. all i am thinking right now is to get over my exams. i just hope that time could pass faster. tmr is my final chance to present the stupidest shit in class. and yet, i've not started anything. lol. gotta thanks kenny for taking time off.


random photo taken in the student hub. no idea why i look so sad.


the weather for the past few days was really humid. was having headache in class. can't stand it. and jonni just took a photo of me when i tried to cover my face. look quite nice i thought. haha.



caught new moon with baby. totally love the show. why is everyone saying it was lousy? i dun think so. it was good. although the ending was stupid. but it keeps people in suspense. then ppl will keep watching. it's just like harry porter. but twilight is way better! sorry am not a harry fan. i goddamn love jacob. he is fucking hawt!!



i need a great deal of motivation!!!!!!
i want to have a fucking slim body. STOP MY CRAVINGS FOR CHRIST SAKE!


STOP MY CRAVINGS FOR ICE CREAMS ................
STOP MY CRAVINGS FOR CHOCOLATES ................
STOP MY CRAVINGS FOR POPCORNS .................
STOP MY CRAVINGS FOR PASTAS ..................
START MY HABIT OF EXERCISING !!!!!!!!!

i wannabe slim, santa! imma good baby this yr.



take a close look at this interesting photo.



dun be pervert...
it's not the butt...
it's the arm! wahaha!

a human being is only interesting if he's in contact with himself. i learned you have to trust yourself, be what you are, and do what you ought to do the way you should do it. you have got to discover you, what you do, and trust it. as soon as you trust yourself, you will know how to live.

mistakes are a part of being human. appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. when you make a mistake, don't look back at it long. take the reason of the thing into your mind and then look forward. mistakes are lessons of wisdom. the past cannot be changed. the future is yet in your power. look not mournfully into the past. it comes not back again. wisely improve the present. go forth to meet the shadowy future, without fear.

it is perhaps a more fortunate destiny to have a taste for collecting shells than to be born a millionaire.